Lost

I have such a hard time nowadays

Figuring out where I should go

What I should do

So I sit

Sit inside my head or inside yours

Stroking on the fragile neurons

Wondering if I will even remember this

If any of it even matters to anyone

It doesn’t matter to me

So how could it matter to you

My complacency

My dependency

My stagnation

My darkness

That creeps up in the middle of the night when no one is looking

I keep it with me until morning

And share bits and pieces

Just enough to scare you

And make you know that I am not

And never will be

Fucking normal